You Think You Know Someone

it happens to us all;
we think we know someone,
until it hits it all.

the moment they turn their back on you,
you question your self-worth,
your self-hate,
your self-guilt.

that’s when it’s supposed to hit.

an alarm waiting to go off in your head that moment.

your intuition’s caution.

your instinct’s defense.

another broken wall to be fixed,
another wall to be built.

Your Angelic Halo

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i turned to see the Moon on my right,

and the Sun

on my left.

the further steps I took,
the closer things around me I noticed to your awe.

the tint on my nose, and frosty sting on my ears,

awoke me to my sense with every breath I inhaled and every mist I exhaled.

the more times the wind battled my slumber,
the further my dissociation relinquished.

both phases carried on their natural glow,
as I looked from east to west.

yet, I knew from before, both tales carry on infinitely,
even after their end.

alone in the twilight,
yet in your comfort’s embrace;
how with every stimulus I bet,
your only aura I can detect.

 

I Won’t Let You Down

 

today, you came up in the conversation.

a conversation so painful to flow. my throat gulped for pain provoked.

yet today, i combated the escape to go.

you shine in my heart, and it so should too, in the words i speak; bare with me.

your death, we do not part.

my loss, forever more.

our story will ever grow, in the heavens, our graves shall hold.

just not yet… i need to find my soul.

Missing Someone So Much- Causing Your Body An Illness

Missing someone provokes the physical perceptions of loss, all over the human body.

As if a moment, things feel attached, the next something is well-known cut-off. 

It causes the body a retrograde cycle of illness.

 

 

MMXVII/VI/I

To her friend,

The friend who left the world too early.

 

Her heart filled aches encased in her body,

Bless made her soul ponder the state of her oblivious mind.

 

The motion of her feet walking through the grass of earth- the place the friend was no longer there- swallowed her detached numb auras under the soles of her feet.

The waves of the night stood in front of her eyes,

below the midnight blue sky.

The waves were strong,

and she drowned.

 

All of their moments during their lives meant something for the two,

she knew it did.

 

She saw the reflection of their spark in the blue eyes back in time.

 

Hatred came upon her missing it.

Yet the boundary between life and death, made her feel so fragile in this big world.

 

She wondered if they missed her too.

She was strong, however.

“I’ll go on, at least I’ll try,” she said into the night.

She’ll go on like she said,

Living the dreams that she felt the friend would have wanted her to;

As she has been coping for the past while now.

“I miss you,” and she angelically smiled to the sky, knowing the unknown through the night.

 

 

 

 

 

Abused- Misused

DSC_0439 (2).JPGThe vile words shouting at my ears,

The marks left on my adolescent skin.

 

No one will know,

the fear encompassing my soul at that moment.

 

For as I defended,

my body collapsed.

 

Tears staining the carpet,

draining my

sorrows onto the world.

 

Wanting to be alone,

scared to sleep alone.

 

Being ill is not my fault,

my environment provoked the illness upon me.

 

Being blamed for my illness makes it harder to keep going forward.

 

It is just another typical day, my dear,

of being beaten for my mistakes.

 

Another day of staying confused… another time being misused.